Journal Page  May 15, 2002
Hi guys. Well a lot has been happening to me lately or since I last wrote. Mostly I've been going through some things emotionally. I've been trying to figure out things that I have to deal with on my own in here. I'll be fine. You don't have to worry about me. I'm bugging because I miss Monica and I'm dying to hear her voice. I've been asking Elsie to talk to Monica about when is it a good time for me to call her.
May 18, 2002
I got something in the mail from my baby girl. It's our anniversary month and she sent me this drawing that she made of "Spiderman". She knows how much I love 'Spiderman'. She also sent me this beautiful card along with our virtual date together. She even included the dinner menu. I really wish I was on that date with her right now. I surprised her with an anniversary gift too. I sent her this drawing that I had made for her that said, 'To my chocolate...baby'. And in the heart it said, 'You're the best'. You can't imagine how much I miss her and how much I want to hear her voice.
May 20, 2002
Guess what? I got a chance to talk to my dad over the phone. I hadn't heard from him in a long time. I called Elsie and she was able to use her three-way phone service to connect with my dad. I was so happy to talk to him!!! And can you believe that Monica told me that she tried to call my dad before I talked to him on the phone. My dad said that he would say that if Monica called for him, tell her that he wasn't there. It turned out that my dad had a girlfriend named Monica that he was avoiding. So, when my baby, Monica called, he thought it was "HIS" Monica. Ha, ha, ha. :) We had a good laugh about that.
Oh and I talked to my sisters on the phone too. I missed them so much. I now get two phone calls a day, and I just got a letter from my Monica, saying that Monday-Wednesday are good days to call her. Yes!!!! I can't wait. More good news.......I finally got my T.V. that I ordered. My family sent me money, so that I could get it. Can you believe that I haven't seen T.V. in like 7 years!!!! So, now that I have one, I'm hooked. LOL. :)
June 5th, 2002
She got my anniversary gift!!! Monica sent me more print-outs of people who signed my guestbook. Cool!! I swear this is the best part of this website. I love it!!!! So, there's not much to say really. It's June and this is the month where I go before the parole board. I don't really know what to think at this point. They can call me up to the parole board at any time this month. Monica & I haven't spoken on the phone in a while, but we will soon. I'm looking forward to that as well. Can you believe that I'm still waiting to get a job in here as well as take a college class. It's so frustrating, I just want to be doing something already. I told Monica that I've been glued to this T.V. I missed so many programs and movies. If I can't work in here or take a class, at least I have some T.V. to watch in the meantime.
June 9th, 2002
Monica was so mad at me when I read this one part in her letter to me. I had found out that my dad is sick and dying. My step-dad had told me awhile back and then in the recent month, my dad told me himself. So, Monica was saying how she was mad at me because I didn't tell her how I was feeling or the fact that I even knew. She doesn't like it when I keep these kinds of feelings to myself rather then talk about them. She knows how I get. I sometimes shut down and I don't write to anyone until I get my thoughts together. She was saying how it's important that I tell her how I feel because she wants to be there for me and she can't do that if I don't tell her what's upsetting me. And I understand that. I didn't tell her because, I don't trust my step-pops and I wasn't sure it was true until my dad told me it was. I don't want her to be mad at me and I know that she doesn't want me to be mad at her. We'll be okay with this. We have great communication for a long distance relationship.
June 23th, 2002
Hi. How is everyone doing, as I type along? Fine a trust and pray. Well, it's been a little. I guess I have to mention that I've been before the parole board. I was hoping with all my heart that I would finally be able to be free. :( But, I wasn't granted my parole. I'm very disappointed in my actions because I wanted so much to be out and ready to begin my relationship with Monica. I felt that I had let her down, as well as my family. I'm okay though. I'm still upset about it, but I'll move on. I'm so glad that I have my family by myside as well as my beautiful, 'chocolate bunny'.
So, guess what? I called 'My baby girl'!! Twice actually!! She told me how Sundays were the days to call her. Can you believe that she was in the showere when I called her!! Ha ha ha. Anyways, we were on the phone for a half an hour each. I really missed her. I was telling her how I was starting this new excersing routine and that my muscles were aching. And she said tha I sounded so cute and adorable because of how I was complaining. I really miss her. We have another call July 7th, 2002 and every Sunday after that. Talk to you guys soon. -Ralphy.
August 1, 2002
Hey there. I know that it's been a while. Sorry about that. I've been meaning to write recently but, I've been busy. A lot of things have happened. Let's see, umm first of all, I'm not able to make daily calls like I had been before. The prison I was at gave me a lot of heartache and I didn't feel safe anymore so I asked to leave. It's just that I hated it there and I felt uncomfortable. The police are harsh and they don't treat prisoners with respect. So my other reason for leaving is because I don't want to stick around and risk having something happen to me. I hope this makes sense. Prisons are negative no matter how much you try to avoid it. Best thing for me to do at this point is go where I feel safer.
Even though I may feel sad at times. I'm so glad that I have Monica!! You don't know how amazing she's been to me!! She told me that she wants me to know that she's going to at least send me 2 letters and a postcard. That made me feel so good inside. We somewhat lost contact due to the fact that I didn't know when I was leaving to my new facility. I'll let you know how things are once I get settled in. Anyways, I was able to send her a letter and tell her when I was moving. Oh man!! Can you believe that she sent me another surprise and she has another on it's way to me? I'm so excited about this!!!! She sent me this long letter called "Remember when...." It was about all the good memories that we have been through over this past year. It was so cool. I was shocked and I loved the memories!! It made me feel good inside!! I sent her a 30-page letter. That's the most I've written her or anyone for that matter. I can't wait to hear what she has to say to me. Lately she's been decorating her letters to me & I love it!!! She knows how much I love that. I can't get over how she makes me feel!!! So, this surprise is bugging me, I can't stop thinking about it. I can't wait to see what she has for me. Oh and she told me how she got a bunch of vacation magazines for me because she knows how much I love learning about foreign countries and how I want to visit some of them some day....I'll talk to you guys soon. Take care.....Ralphy..
September 3, 2002
Hey guys..How is everyone doing? Fine I trust and pray. As for myself, I'm doing okay..I'm in another facility. I moved from Attica because I hated it there. I'm in a safer facility now. So, a lot of things have happened. My sisters moved to another apartment in New York. My youngest sister, Marina is suppose to be going to Puerto Rico for a year to stay with family. And my sister Tiffany is taking a test to become a police officier. I'm waiting to hear back on their plans. Me and Monica are doing good. We're still communicating regularly and making each other laugh and smile. Updated letters will be on my second website You can find the website on the "Guestbook Page". Gotta go. We'll talk soon...
October 1, 2002
I'm back. :) So, guess what? I've learned how to draw on bed sheets. We cut the sheets into about 10 x 14 inches and fray the edges and draw on them. They look really nice. Especially in color. I've been so into making them for my family lately. I wish I could show you what they look like. I'm going to try and see if my cousin can scan one for you so, that Monica can add it to my website. The latest on me and Monica, is that we have been going nuts writing eachother. Normally we'll write 12 to 18 pages to eachother. But, lately, I wrote her a 40-page letter and she wrote me back with a 50-page letter. We're so crazy sometimes when it comes to challenging eachother. See you guys later.
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